Yeah. It’s been ages. I’ve gone through the die-off thing which was hellish and awful and I couldn’t even hold up a book to read it, that’s how weak I felt. Blah blah blah.
I’ve been so whiney and self-victimizing about this whole thing lately. I’m so sick of hearing myself whine about it which is one of the reasons that I haven’t really wrote anything here. The diet sucks. I’m obsessed with food. But I’ve been reading a lot of message boards/listserv things about GFCF diet and there’s really a lot of things I can eat, so I’m trying to focus on that. I went to Whole Foods’ website and they’ve got a whole list of everything gluten free that they sell, so I used that, and granted a lot of things on that list I couldn’t have because of casein or sugar/yeast/candida foods, but there were a lot of things I could get so I did and I’m going to try and be a lot more positive about it. It’s not for the rest of my life, I’m sure, and it’s not going to kill me to eat a varied diet, which I haven’t been doing.
It’s interesting, in my research of the GFCF thing, I’ve discovered a lot of children (and adults, but the lists I’ve been reading have been mostly parents) who have Autism Spectrum Disorder, when they go GFCF they end up with massively increased function. A lot of those kids would self-limit to wheat and dairy (sound familiar? Me? Nooooo.) because the proteins in wheat and dairy (gluten and casein, respectively) produce opiates. No, I’m serious. You become addicted to these foods because they affect your brain the same way opium does. Hooray.
Anyway. Sorry for being quiet for so long. I was really tired of hearing myself whine about how I couldn’t eat this, or I couldn’t eat that yadda yadda yadda.